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Saturday, March 27, 2010

pilu.....

Pilu sungguh htiku ini... Bunga mawar yg harum mewangi kian layu dari pndanganku.. Apakan dayaku hanya sbg insan yg bernama lelaki.. Restu org tua tetap mnjadi kunci dlm sesuatu perhubungan.. Namun aku tetap teguh berdiri,wlau onak dan duri yg kuhadapi ini amat menguji kesabaran dan ketabahan hati.. Janji2 manis yg terungkap dari bibir hanyalah menjadi syarat,bkn menjadi penentu.. Aku sentiasa kebingungan kerna alasan yg tidak munasabah yg diberi org tua telah menjadi durjana dlm hubungan yg suci.. (Akhlak tidak dipandang,usaha nabi ditendang,kekerasan hati menjadi dalang).. Itulah manusia.. Org tua tidak semestinya mulia,org muda tidak semestinya hina,namun iman dan taqwa shj yg menjadi faktor kebahagiaan di dunia.. (Apakan daya,akhlak ditunjuk,pintu hati belum diketuk,hidayah msih belum masuk).. Itulah manusia.. Tiada lagi kemusykilan di hati, andai iman sentiasa diusahakan,tiada lagi alasan diberi, andai akhlak ditunjukkan.. Kesabaran menjadi benteng diri, wlau nafsu sudah memberontak,apa lg yg nk dicari, andai iman sudah marak.. Masa yg berlalu menjadi bukti, cinta yg suci dan sejati, namun org tua tetap menjadi kunci, dikala asmara di buai mimpi.. Kugenggam cintamu,tnpa berasa sdikit jemu, kejunjung pengorbananmu, tidak sesekali menjadi abu.. (Andai bukan permaisuri dari beseri, siapa lagi di hati ini, pilihan umi akn menjadi saksi, tika aku melafazkan sbg suami).. Air mata yg berlinangan, tnpa menyedari ada tanggungan, kenangan lalu sntiasa menjadi igauan, tika diri sudah ditawan.. Kenangan tidak sesekali dilupakan, kehadiranmu bgaikn mimpi indah, hanya iman menjadi teman, tika air mata jatuh ke tanah.. Aku sedar, kehidupan ini tidaklah membawa apa2 makna andai diri terleka dari mengingati yg Maha Mencipta,yg Maha Kuasa.. (Apalah hinanya usaha nabi, hingga sanggup dicaci-caci, malah diri ini turut dibenci, kerna menjunjung sunnah sampai mati).. Banggakah kita,melihat umat kian sengsara, dalam mencari keseronokan dunia yg sementara, yg sentiasa musnah ditelan masa.. Sanggupkah kita, melihat ank2 muda berpesta, pergaulan dan sosial tidak lagi dijaga,tanpa hirau dosa dan pahala, sungguh rugi selama2nya... Marilah kita berfikir bersama...................

Friday, March 26, 2010

Dilema...........

Sejak kebelakangan ini, kehidupan aku bagaikan org yg sedang dilema... Aku kebingungan,tidak tahu hendak membuat keputusan ketika ini... Kerna aku tahu, keputusan yg silap akn membawa padah kpd diriku... Penuh ujian dan pancaroba yg dtg kpdku... Hari2 yg berlalu bagaikan tiada apa2 mkna kpd diriku... Menanti hari pengadilan barangkali lebih baik drp terseksanya jiwaku kini... Itulah yg dpt aku gmbrkan sdkt sbyk ttg prsaanku... Aku dilema............................!!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

SebAk..............

Dingin mlm jmaat itu,aku brasa amt sebak dan sdih apbila trpksa mndgr brita yg mngecewakn.. Aku tahu dlm situasi yg gnting sprti itu aku harus bijak menanganinya dgn tenang beserta senjata yg aku bawa slma ini iaitu DOA.. Ya Allahu Ya Rabbul Izzati,ya Khaliqul makhluq,aku memohon padamu ya Allah,agar melembutkan hati seorg ibu utk mnerima aku sbg ahli baru dlm kluarganya.. Aku tidak mmpunyai sebarang kudrat lg utk menyelesaikn mslh ini.. Ya Allah,kpd Engkau jugalah aku akn kmbali.. Ku tunduk memperhambakan diriku pdmu Ya Allah,menadah tangan yg pnuh linangan air mata,kumohon padamu agar menunaikan hasrat aku ya Allah.. Ampunknlah segala dosaku slma ini yg telah aku lakukan secara sedar atw tidak.. Ya Allah, hnya Engkau yg berkuasa ke ats sgla sesuatu di alam yg fana' ini.. ya Allah,stiap hri yg aku lalui tiada apa2 mkna tnpa mengingatiMu ya Allah.. Aku tahu,seharusnya aku mengingatiMu sbnar2nya.. Aku silap ya Allah.. Aku hmba yg lemah.. Aku mencintai hambaMu yg fana' sepenuh hatiku.. Namun apakan daya,aku tidak mampu utk mentadbir dan menentukan sesuatu.. Ya Allah,berikanlah tawajuh ke dlm diriku ini smula dlm membantu agamaMu ya Allah.. Aku yakin,jika aku terus membantu agamaMu tanpa berasa risau atw gentar sdikitpun,nusrah dan pertolonganMu akn dtg kpdku melimpah2.. Aku yakin pd janji2Mu ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemurah lg Maha Pengasih.. Hanya Engkaulah tmpt aku kembali.. Ya Allah!! Kasihanilah aku.. Kasihanilah kami ya Allah! Aku berniat baik dlm hbgn ini ya Allah.. Hinanya aku di hadapanMu ya Allah!!!!! Aku malu.............................

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

zikroYaati abadan abada......

Early in the morning of 31 oct 2006,i decided to surf internet...i felt so mundane so that i just entered to a chat room in kampungchat.com ..just then,i saw a nice nickname..it was ayu_chitee!!
as i chatted with her,i felt something that was very strange to me..i got very excited when she had agreed to be my friend..yeah,it was very unique to me because she was a gorgeous girl..i thought for many times n whispered to myself..'' Is she the best one that i want to be mine before? oh hoo..i found it! i felt it was a dream that became reality! Since then,day by day i started to chat with her frequently... We always chat in ym that being our suitable place to know each other closely..

After a year i waited for her hp no,lastly she gave her hp number to me as she was convinced to me.. Our relationship became more serious.. One day, she faced a big problem with her family... She had to leave me!! On 28 June of 2008, she left me forever... In the crucial time that, i cant image how i wanted to say.. I felt very sorrow n i tried to find her.. When i entered my room, i screamed loudly.. AyUUUUUU!!!!!!!! Dont leave me!!!! Dont leave me,dear!!! I dont know what is the best way to find her.. Everyday i would never surrender to find her again.. After she lost out of my life, i could feel that it was similarly to a very precious thing lost too... Its miserable story in my life... I could not afford to do anything except pray n pray to Allah everyday... I would never misconstrue about her because i knew she was not a hussy... I was convinced that...

Possibly she was never conscious yet that i was very sincere in our relationship... It was so arduous for me to survive in my life without her... Everyday i thought how to rectify this situation... I did not wanted to be an unscrupulous person due to this situation... Virtue of high toleration was became one of the factors of my success.. After a year, my instinct had changed.. She emanated in my dream!!! I was dreamt that she came back to me n we started to be a happily couple as before.. Since then,she promised to me that she would never repeat her mistake again... Till now,we are being a happily n suitable couple... We praised to Allah.. May Allah bless our relationship... Dakwah was my inspired to know with her... Thats all... Syukran jazilan limaqru' haza ar risalah!!