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Friday, November 19, 2010

The Most Memorable in My Life..........

On 19 November of 2010, yesterday, I went to a very special place for me. Name a place that is no stranger to myself, beseri, indeed take a long time to get there .. However, in the spirit of the cease-fire has made me be like in the sky .. unnoticed, the journey that took me over 2 hours I did not feel as a way of boring .. my arrival there, my heart skipped a beat like a cow to be slaughtered .. even so, I still bring myself because I know I'm good intentions are certainly rewarded with a good service .. a considerable distance from the point, I can see her already involved waiting for me outside her house .. i could guess what was in her heart.. definitely she could also know what was in my mind.. Awesome!! Truly my zaujah fil mustaqbal..

I felt all of my plans before were running well.. it seems as a good starting for me in order to come for another time to get hitched with her,huhuhuhu... sometimes i thought that she was never care for me yet always to be indifference person.. huh!! BUT, when i knew her for many years,i could infer that she not a hussy i expected to many girls in today's world.. It was something gruesome for me!! LOVE....will depicted explicitly when both of us trust with each other, know how to perceive sacrifices and others... AHHH!!! back to my story again... yeah, her parents talked kindly with full of courtesy and did not let us being in jail...

Undeniably, ambience at her area a little bit made me restive...I felt the temperature there was so high!! I almost could not be patient anymore BUT due to her conscience, i finally succeeded reinvent my viscid enthusiasm to stay there until evening..WHY? All of them are bcause of LOVE... Just then, i thought to go back home when i noticed it was going to rain..to be continued...hehehe

Friday, November 5, 2010

Sabar.....

After almost 2 years i have been studying in Darul Quran University College, i got very excited..it was a precious opportunity for me in completing my diploma tahfiz n syari'ah...well, humans are never satisfied with what they have and always want more..actually, since i have been studying in Darul Quran, i got a little injection of enthusiasm to flounder harder for success especially in my course..nowadays, it would be unusual to find anyone between the ages of thirteen to twenty who does not have an ambition...i dont want to talk about ambition but today im interested to share about the strength of our ummah...as a muslim, we should concern about our ummah...isnt it? It is undeniably that we can see obviously how bad deterioration of our nation... How to curb it effectively? Im one of huffaz realized that it burdened in my shoulder too.. The most unscrupulous or merciless person who said that the deterioration of our nation are not their responsibility... Hah???!! What a bad person!! Suck these indifference person!! All of us should follow sunnah of our prophet in life.. God willing, our life will running well and always covered by Allah's love and good fortune forever..... Does it embarrassing to all malaysians including other races? Hey, come on.. We have to refute all the accusations that cited our nation and our religion are the lowest rank in our country!!!!!! Ops, toO emotional.. haha.. to be continued yea...hehehe

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Merenung masa depan..........

Smlm aku balik umh sempena cuti hri rya idulfitri...aku rs sonok sgt...mklumlah, dh lme x jmpa fmly n adk ksygnku, adnin... aku rse hdupku skrg lapang dan tenang...kdg2 tu aku rse sunyi plak..aku mest ingt yg aku xleh tinggal mengulang hfzn quran yg tlh aku hfl...16 juz bkn sikit...sgt mmbebankn..amt ssh utk mnjganya..hmm..tmbh2 skrg ni musim exm, mcm2 kne cover..as perfect as i can, i should do the best even i know its quite arduous to score well in the two quran subjects, writing n reciting...hmm, ape2pn aku brsykr sbb Allah plih aku utk jd hafiz..skurg2nya aku lain drp kwn2 aku yg lain..plan aku lps DQ? hmm, i'Allah pasti aku akn smbung stdy kt uia gombk..aku mnat g sne sbb suasana dia..all english n there is a few social problems as compared to others.. i think the most admired course in my thought currently is tesl..i love english the most..i dont know why,but i could infer my intention..my parents also give me full of support...at the same tym,i love arabic language too..at first,i hv been dreaming to be an arabic lecturer but lately i felt tend to english course...whether arabic or english will be my majoring n minoring...teman hidup? huhu...its QUITE complicated to talk bout that..im currently seeking solace in my friends to release my stress...im desultory to think bout that...hatiku slalu dilukai..aku sakit..aku tdk thn lg..aku xthu smpai bla lg ht ku akn trus dprlakukn bgini..adklanya aku rse sprti aku tgh kuasai dunia ni...tp adklanya jgk aku rs sgt kerdil,sgt kecewa dn xthu lg lah nk ckp mcm mne ksdihn aku ni...

Kdg2, x slalunya org yg kta syg akn mmbhgiakn kta..dia juga brgkali bleh jd duri kpd kta..aku bingung utk mmkirkn psl ni..pening!!! pening!!!! knp aku slalu kne mcm ni??? mne perginya aku yg keras dhlu???ahh!!! aku xnk pk..yg pntg aku relaxkn dri aku..stdy,bc quran,stdy,quran...yg tu lg pntg.......daaaa............... to be continued~

Saturday, March 27, 2010

pilu.....

Pilu sungguh htiku ini... Bunga mawar yg harum mewangi kian layu dari pndanganku.. Apakan dayaku hanya sbg insan yg bernama lelaki.. Restu org tua tetap mnjadi kunci dlm sesuatu perhubungan.. Namun aku tetap teguh berdiri,wlau onak dan duri yg kuhadapi ini amat menguji kesabaran dan ketabahan hati.. Janji2 manis yg terungkap dari bibir hanyalah menjadi syarat,bkn menjadi penentu.. Aku sentiasa kebingungan kerna alasan yg tidak munasabah yg diberi org tua telah menjadi durjana dlm hubungan yg suci.. (Akhlak tidak dipandang,usaha nabi ditendang,kekerasan hati menjadi dalang).. Itulah manusia.. Org tua tidak semestinya mulia,org muda tidak semestinya hina,namun iman dan taqwa shj yg menjadi faktor kebahagiaan di dunia.. (Apakan daya,akhlak ditunjuk,pintu hati belum diketuk,hidayah msih belum masuk).. Itulah manusia.. Tiada lagi kemusykilan di hati, andai iman sentiasa diusahakan,tiada lagi alasan diberi, andai akhlak ditunjukkan.. Kesabaran menjadi benteng diri, wlau nafsu sudah memberontak,apa lg yg nk dicari, andai iman sudah marak.. Masa yg berlalu menjadi bukti, cinta yg suci dan sejati, namun org tua tetap menjadi kunci, dikala asmara di buai mimpi.. Kugenggam cintamu,tnpa berasa sdikit jemu, kejunjung pengorbananmu, tidak sesekali menjadi abu.. (Andai bukan permaisuri dari beseri, siapa lagi di hati ini, pilihan umi akn menjadi saksi, tika aku melafazkan sbg suami).. Air mata yg berlinangan, tnpa menyedari ada tanggungan, kenangan lalu sntiasa menjadi igauan, tika diri sudah ditawan.. Kenangan tidak sesekali dilupakan, kehadiranmu bgaikn mimpi indah, hanya iman menjadi teman, tika air mata jatuh ke tanah.. Aku sedar, kehidupan ini tidaklah membawa apa2 makna andai diri terleka dari mengingati yg Maha Mencipta,yg Maha Kuasa.. (Apalah hinanya usaha nabi, hingga sanggup dicaci-caci, malah diri ini turut dibenci, kerna menjunjung sunnah sampai mati).. Banggakah kita,melihat umat kian sengsara, dalam mencari keseronokan dunia yg sementara, yg sentiasa musnah ditelan masa.. Sanggupkah kita, melihat ank2 muda berpesta, pergaulan dan sosial tidak lagi dijaga,tanpa hirau dosa dan pahala, sungguh rugi selama2nya... Marilah kita berfikir bersama...................

Friday, March 26, 2010

Dilema...........

Sejak kebelakangan ini, kehidupan aku bagaikan org yg sedang dilema... Aku kebingungan,tidak tahu hendak membuat keputusan ketika ini... Kerna aku tahu, keputusan yg silap akn membawa padah kpd diriku... Penuh ujian dan pancaroba yg dtg kpdku... Hari2 yg berlalu bagaikan tiada apa2 mkna kpd diriku... Menanti hari pengadilan barangkali lebih baik drp terseksanya jiwaku kini... Itulah yg dpt aku gmbrkan sdkt sbyk ttg prsaanku... Aku dilema............................!!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

SebAk..............

Dingin mlm jmaat itu,aku brasa amt sebak dan sdih apbila trpksa mndgr brita yg mngecewakn.. Aku tahu dlm situasi yg gnting sprti itu aku harus bijak menanganinya dgn tenang beserta senjata yg aku bawa slma ini iaitu DOA.. Ya Allahu Ya Rabbul Izzati,ya Khaliqul makhluq,aku memohon padamu ya Allah,agar melembutkan hati seorg ibu utk mnerima aku sbg ahli baru dlm kluarganya.. Aku tidak mmpunyai sebarang kudrat lg utk menyelesaikn mslh ini.. Ya Allah,kpd Engkau jugalah aku akn kmbali.. Ku tunduk memperhambakan diriku pdmu Ya Allah,menadah tangan yg pnuh linangan air mata,kumohon padamu agar menunaikan hasrat aku ya Allah.. Ampunknlah segala dosaku slma ini yg telah aku lakukan secara sedar atw tidak.. Ya Allah, hnya Engkau yg berkuasa ke ats sgla sesuatu di alam yg fana' ini.. ya Allah,stiap hri yg aku lalui tiada apa2 mkna tnpa mengingatiMu ya Allah.. Aku tahu,seharusnya aku mengingatiMu sbnar2nya.. Aku silap ya Allah.. Aku hmba yg lemah.. Aku mencintai hambaMu yg fana' sepenuh hatiku.. Namun apakan daya,aku tidak mampu utk mentadbir dan menentukan sesuatu.. Ya Allah,berikanlah tawajuh ke dlm diriku ini smula dlm membantu agamaMu ya Allah.. Aku yakin,jika aku terus membantu agamaMu tanpa berasa risau atw gentar sdikitpun,nusrah dan pertolonganMu akn dtg kpdku melimpah2.. Aku yakin pd janji2Mu ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemurah lg Maha Pengasih.. Hanya Engkaulah tmpt aku kembali.. Ya Allah!! Kasihanilah aku.. Kasihanilah kami ya Allah! Aku berniat baik dlm hbgn ini ya Allah.. Hinanya aku di hadapanMu ya Allah!!!!! Aku malu.............................

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

zikroYaati abadan abada......

Early in the morning of 31 oct 2006,i decided to surf internet...i felt so mundane so that i just entered to a chat room in kampungchat.com ..just then,i saw a nice nickname..it was ayu_chitee!!
as i chatted with her,i felt something that was very strange to me..i got very excited when she had agreed to be my friend..yeah,it was very unique to me because she was a gorgeous girl..i thought for many times n whispered to myself..'' Is she the best one that i want to be mine before? oh hoo..i found it! i felt it was a dream that became reality! Since then,day by day i started to chat with her frequently... We always chat in ym that being our suitable place to know each other closely..

After a year i waited for her hp no,lastly she gave her hp number to me as she was convinced to me.. Our relationship became more serious.. One day, she faced a big problem with her family... She had to leave me!! On 28 June of 2008, she left me forever... In the crucial time that, i cant image how i wanted to say.. I felt very sorrow n i tried to find her.. When i entered my room, i screamed loudly.. AyUUUUUU!!!!!!!! Dont leave me!!!! Dont leave me,dear!!! I dont know what is the best way to find her.. Everyday i would never surrender to find her again.. After she lost out of my life, i could feel that it was similarly to a very precious thing lost too... Its miserable story in my life... I could not afford to do anything except pray n pray to Allah everyday... I would never misconstrue about her because i knew she was not a hussy... I was convinced that...

Possibly she was never conscious yet that i was very sincere in our relationship... It was so arduous for me to survive in my life without her... Everyday i thought how to rectify this situation... I did not wanted to be an unscrupulous person due to this situation... Virtue of high toleration was became one of the factors of my success.. After a year, my instinct had changed.. She emanated in my dream!!! I was dreamt that she came back to me n we started to be a happily couple as before.. Since then,she promised to me that she would never repeat her mistake again... Till now,we are being a happily n suitable couple... We praised to Allah.. May Allah bless our relationship... Dakwah was my inspired to know with her... Thats all... Syukran jazilan limaqru' haza ar risalah!!